tulsa

well, we've spent the last couple of days in Yukon, with Josh's family. We've been celebrating birthdays and spending time with little nieces and a very small (and cute) nephew. It was fun, and I didn't really want it to end, because I knew Tulsa would be our next stop- and that's a big stop.

We drove in, and I immediately started decompensating:) It WAS lunch time, and I needed some food, but it was also incredibly overwhelming to drive into a place that will in a few short weeks be my home- and yet it is anything but right now. I am such a home base kind of person. I need a starting point, something to work from. In Birmingham, we had our church and the neighborhoods around it- here, everything is wide open. and strange, full of strangers. I wanted to cry, and yet wanted to dream big, hopeful dreams, too. But I am too tired, at least today.

We drove around  a good bit today, and saw some neighborhoods. We marked some off the list, which felt good. Elimination is helpful in our case. Tomorrow I interview for  a job, and I am not sure I can actually button the pants that I brought. The pooch, is pooching- although it looks less like pregnant pooch, and more like I ate one too many cheeseburgers:)

I know that things generally work out, and I am praying things will for us. Life feels so hypothetical right now. We're "moving" to Tulsa. We are "having a baby". We are "selling our house"- yet none of these things have actually happened, and I wonder to myself how it all will.

but it will. right?