borrowed tears
Thursday, June 28, 2007
my friend neil posted about this story today. I don't know if I am just tired, or if its the fertility meds, or just incredibly refreshing to watch something beautiful. At any rate, I cried, when I watched this.
crazy and lazy
Monday, June 18, 2007
well, summer is here. About June 1 I become seriously non-committal. Everything is maybe. So what do Josh and I decide to do yesterday? Tear apart our kitchen. As if we did not have enough going on already- we add yet another thing. sheesh.
I must say that I am proud of our little adventure thus far. We have relocated a semi-kitchen in the dining room. the cabinets are gone. The floor is being ripped up as I speak. The hardwoods look like they are in good shape and easily refinish-able. Our dishwasher just sat on the curb for all of 5 seconds. There are benefits to living in the margins. nasty dishwasher= money. I am glad they took it. I hope it helps.
I read Anne Lamott's "Grace Eventually"..I guess this is kind of the third of her trilogy on faith. I feel alot of things when I read her- I feel like I am always in a safe place with "Jesus", and at the same time I feel scared to death. Anne Lamott has seen some tragedy, but she also places herself in the path of the Gospel, which mean pain and love and gasping for air and finding it. I just barely get this, but not even really.
I think I will look back on my life and say my first thirty years and say they were incredibly selfish- I am not throwing a pity party here, this is real conviction I am feeling. So much of my spirituality has been self serving, and thankfully, I am tired of this. I am SICK of it.
Anyway, I am still turning all this over in my head. I guess I probably always will.
I must say that I am proud of our little adventure thus far. We have relocated a semi-kitchen in the dining room. the cabinets are gone. The floor is being ripped up as I speak. The hardwoods look like they are in good shape and easily refinish-able. Our dishwasher just sat on the curb for all of 5 seconds. There are benefits to living in the margins. nasty dishwasher= money. I am glad they took it. I hope it helps.
I read Anne Lamott's "Grace Eventually"..I guess this is kind of the third of her trilogy on faith. I feel alot of things when I read her- I feel like I am always in a safe place with "Jesus", and at the same time I feel scared to death. Anne Lamott has seen some tragedy, but she also places herself in the path of the Gospel, which mean pain and love and gasping for air and finding it. I just barely get this, but not even really.
I think I will look back on my life and say my first thirty years and say they were incredibly selfish- I am not throwing a pity party here, this is real conviction I am feeling. So much of my spirituality has been self serving, and thankfully, I am tired of this. I am SICK of it.
Anyway, I am still turning all this over in my head. I guess I probably always will.
quiet
Sunday, June 10, 2007
what a week. I was kind of sad yesterday when my grandmother and mom and jim drove off. it's been so busy and full with the new baby niece here and family and food. it's tiring the way hard laughter is tiring. it's good.
anyway, the quiet is kind of lonely, but I am trying to rest in it. gillian welch helps. it's funny, how she makes me such less afraid of loss. her music has a way of redeeming my fear.
dad and jackie will be here friday. we'll do it all again. and i will be a little sad again, and i will probably tell you about it.
until then, have a good week.
anyway, the quiet is kind of lonely, but I am trying to rest in it. gillian welch helps. it's funny, how she makes me such less afraid of loss. her music has a way of redeeming my fear.
dad and jackie will be here friday. we'll do it all again. and i will be a little sad again, and i will probably tell you about it.
until then, have a good week.
addison leigh tingle
Sunday, June 03, 2007
here she is. all 9 POUNDS 12 OZ. of her. My sister was so brave. I love you Whitney and Terry!
almost here
Sunday, June 03, 2007
well, i tried to coax my neice into existance last nite, and it apparently worked. we've been here all morning and from my mother's last spy session, it seems like she will be here soon! the words push, push, push, push, push kind of gave it away.
I am ready to meet this little lady.
I am ready to meet this little lady.
hello.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
saturday mornings seem to be the day to collect my thoughts on the weeks happenings. coffee to the left. patty griffin in my ears. I am on day two of fertility meds. I haven't gone crazy yet. yet. As if the whole process didn't play with your mind enough, it's hard to say what is what- but I feel good today. this thing just isn't in my hands.
josh is off for the summer. he has had quite a year, so it is good to see him relax and have him home. our 8 weeks of healthy living is going well. we went to the gym 4 times this week. I am back in the pool, so my back is a wreck, but I love swimming so much, so its worth the pain for now.
No big plans for summer for us. Infertility has a way of limiting almost everything. I will probably go to the clinic 3 or 4 times this week, if not more.
On the fertility front- My sister, who is great with child, is due any day this week. I am really looking forward to meeting little miss addison. this is the first little one on the Elliott side of the family, so we are pretty much going to drive my sister insane with love and affection for the little thing.
we might re-do our kitchen. It needs some serious help. serious. We will probably make the jump in July, but for now, we are drinking coffee, sleeping in, and watching movies.
AND thanks for all the lovely encouragement on the new WEBSITE.
happy saturday.
josh is off for the summer. he has had quite a year, so it is good to see him relax and have him home. our 8 weeks of healthy living is going well. we went to the gym 4 times this week. I am back in the pool, so my back is a wreck, but I love swimming so much, so its worth the pain for now.
No big plans for summer for us. Infertility has a way of limiting almost everything. I will probably go to the clinic 3 or 4 times this week, if not more.
On the fertility front- My sister, who is great with child, is due any day this week. I am really looking forward to meeting little miss addison. this is the first little one on the Elliott side of the family, so we are pretty much going to drive my sister insane with love and affection for the little thing.
we might re-do our kitchen. It needs some serious help. serious. We will probably make the jump in July, but for now, we are drinking coffee, sleeping in, and watching movies.
AND thanks for all the lovely encouragement on the new WEBSITE.
happy saturday.
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