visit with the little one

very nice.

our trip to st louis could not have been better. the morning after we arrived, I walked out of jackie's house to clear blue skies and temperatures in the 70's. i felt like dancing. now, this is a rare occasion (the dancing and the weather)...even for st louis. at any rate, we drank good coffee, spent time with good friends, and generally felt like we were home. I managed only to cry once, with kurt and susan, but i let the tears fall, because sometimes they just have to.

home. I feel like i have so many. different rooms of my life feeling more comfortable in different cities. who knows which one will keep us the longest, wrap it's streets and food and people all around us. time will only tell.

I am reminded today by a call from suzanne, that there are friends waiting on the other end of a long trip. I am pretty sure I do not deserve that.

time to sleep.

saint louis

josh and i are off to st louis for a wedding tomorrow. I am really. really. looking forward to it. it's been over a year since we have visited our beloved city, and it's time. I am hoping the open road will do my soul some good. It's been such a hard month. I feel like I always say that. but it has.

but good is always within arms reach. for one, I am working part-time now. I am hoping to create some more space for brooke jared photography. people keep writing and calling- which makes me feel so good. like this is what I was meant to do. so keep telling your friends. pretty please.

we are still not pregnant. i know one day i will be thankful for the words I wrote during this season of life. to remember the journey by. sometimes I would rather not write, and pretend this is not happening to us. but it is. and i mostly hate it- but i am not alone. and if i can remember that, i do better.

my dad gets on to me about remaining positive. having a plan. both of those things I am aim for. some days it is more of a longing, a place I wish I were. all and all I believe we will have a baby. at some point. it's the getting there, you know.

ahh.... i need a good laugh. i feel one coming on.

more from the road, until then....

here are some things

that i have been liking, lately.

wheat toast with nutella
the weepies
working part-time
my new KAVU bag
hanging out with addison
amazing photography clients
swimming (refer to earlier post on 8 weeks of healthy living)
Sunday Morning (CBS)- still hands down my favorite show on television. good, clever stories.


still, not liking.

my unfinished kitchen
clomid

what are you liking/disliking?

geez

june has been a long month. i'll be back to the blog soon- but I am TIRED, and BIG BROTHER just started up again, which is not something I am really proud of, but what can I say?

anyone read any good books lately? last time I got some wonderful suggestions. this is definately a weekend that I would like to get lost in a book.

I also want to see that new movie "evening"...anyone seen that movie? I am big fan of toni collette. If toni collette and joan cusack were in a movie together. wow, now that would make me really happy.