almost over

I can't believe my mom and Jim actually got to come after all the drama last week, and I can't believe they leave tomorrow. It's been a nice time of eating, Christmas decorating, much laziness, and some shopping. We may have even managed to get Annie's schedule changed a bit, so she naps later in the afternoon, goes to bed later, and wakes up later! We'll see if it sticks, but here's to hoping! My 5am mornings are killing me.

Last night we drove around and looked at Christmas lights. Annie loved it, and said "beautiful" for the first time.

I definitely missed being in Macon. I love being home for the holidays, and would have loved to have seen my sweet grandmother, sister, my dad and jackie. It will probably be Summer before we make it back South, and I just choose not to think about how long that seems.

Just so thankful this year for so many things. Most of all, that my grandmother is going home from the hospital today. It's really just amazing that she is here with us.

I am not thankful for the continuing fight to feel well. I am working on it, but all I can say is that it is the 3rd trimester, and I am already SO OVER YOU.

cheers:)

a week of crazies

I am glad to tell you that my grandmother is doing great. Her cardiac cath was totally clear with no damage to her heart muscle. She had an AICD/pacemaker put in yesterday, which will hopefully ward off any more incidents of cardiac arrest at anniversary parties. It's been an emotional week, with lots of unknowns. We're all breathing a little easier now. Well, some are. It's currently 4 am and I have heart burn, so I'm blogging.

My step sister in law had a beautiful baby girl yesterday and then spent the day having blood pressure instability and passing out. So we left one crisis and entered another. Last I heard, she was being monitored a bit more closely, but she was resting and feeling better. I hope so.

We bought bourbon and wine last night to welcome my mom and Jim to Thanksgiving today. I think they will need it. Especially if they survive flying through ATL and DFW today after such a week of difficulty.

I can't brag much. I just survived one night of work, a week of being 27 weeks pregnant, and a trip to Target on Thanksgiving Eve, in which I had to stop every few minutes to take a deep breath from Amelia's stomping on my bladder.

With that said, much to be grateful for today.

even if the one night Annie seems to be sleeping all night, I can't sleep.

mary

saying prayers for my sweet grandmother mary tonight. She had a seizure/heart attack today in the company of her closest friends. There was a defibrillator on site and someone who knew cpr- the two combined saved her life. She's resting in the hospital tonight and getting tuned up a bit for a cardiac cath tomorrow. Will know a bit more after the cath re: damage, blockages, etc...Praying the damage was minimal, that no surgery will be necessary, and that she can resume her very full life.

If you have ever met my grandmother, you know she is a force to be reckoned with. She's dodged many a bullet in this life- but the people who love her refuse to let her leave us. She told my mother that she died today. She felt the worst pain of her life, which is saying a lot.

Mostly I am just so thankful for that couple who was married 50 years today, and the party they threw, and that my grandmother was there, among so many people that she loved. She would have most likely been alone this afternoon, resting after a morning at church. The outcome would have been much different. I do not always understand the mercy of God, how it befalls so generously at times, and other times seems so distant. I am thankful that it was near today.

Needless to say, there was about an hour today when we knew very little, and I was trying to figure out how to face a day I have dreaded for as long as I can remember. I love that lady, and am utterly thankful for her life. I am so glad I got to hear her voice a few minutes ago.

"I'm here", she said.

26 weeks

I should probably document this pregnancy (besides all the moaning), just a little bit, for the sake of memories. So here I am, 26 weeks. Or 12 weeks from delivering (God willing). I'll hopefully find out tomorrow what our actual surgery date is. I am pushing for 38 weeks. I have no desire to go into labor again, which means, of course, that I will- but anyway....

Amelia continues her acrobatics. And the contractions seems to come on in the afternoon, after I have chased Annie all day and what not. All in all, I pretty much stink at the pregnancy bit, no news there.

As for cravings. Slightly sweetened iced tea. peppermint patties. potato soup and bread from Panera. Occasionally mexican. But mostly it is just wherever the wind blows my appetite, which is in many assorted directions. Josh is LOVING it. (not)