birthday

well, thanks to my dear friend Shelley at work, I made the yummiest chocolate cake ever! It didn't taste as good as hers, but that didn't stop me from eating half of it! ok, maybe a third?

and why, you ask?

Annie turned 3!

We had a great day with friends and family. Annie was a delight, and all felt right.

until everyone left, and a major meltdown ensued.

life with a three year old.

I know that I sound like a broken record on here many times- but life for me right now is such a mixed bag of delight and exhaustion sometimes. I remember my old pastor talking about this. These rare moments of peace, when you think- this is how I imagined it. This is how things are supposed to be. I am glad we get to experience that- or I suppose enduring the chaos would be unbearable at times.

which makes me think of the word shalom.

and how thankful I am words like that exist.

I don't even know

My sweet mom arrives today. We have joked that since our move here, every visit has been centered around something dramatic. Her, coming to rescue me or josh- or coming for a "holiday", which 2 of the past 3 have involved me being baby sick- which basically is like hanging out with someone with the flu. how fun!

so, once again she arrives in the midst of drama, but at least this time its not me! Gah- she might just get a trip to TJ MAXX out of me this time. For those who don't know my mother, this is a very sacred event. TJ Maxx must be visited in every city that she visits. It's like Santa's workshop. So many pretty things, so cheap! I kid, but she does LOVE some TJ MAXX, and in my older and broke years, I can appreciate that in a person.

Unrelated to my mother, Advent has once again been something I hear about and not practiced. I had such high hopes this year before that blasted tumor entered our lives, but it's ok, we are practicing the waiting even if not in a formal way. My mind and heart feel so scattered. I have moments where I think- we need to helping to make clean water in Africa. or we should be sponsoring a child.  or maybe, if I could just read some scripture for like 5 minutes a day. 

but then I put those two little munchkins to bed, and all I can think about is being still, because I know tomorrow is the same gig.

and it's ok.

lordy

ok, I told someone that my husband had surgery a month ago.

I am obviously in a time warp.

Monday will be 3 weeks.

He is doing great.

I am totally wiped out from the single-ish parenting gig. but I am so thankful. really, I am. aren't you convinced?


seriously I am! I AM SO THANKFUL!


ok. back to normal font.

So, in the last week. Amelia is pulling up. cruising. drinking all of her milk from SIPPY cups.

did you read that. NO BOTTLES PEOPLE.


I have now graduated my infant swing, bumbo seat, and BOTTLES.

and lord, she's eating gold fish crackers. smacking them like a granny with those toothless gums.

what happened to my baby girl?

And Annie- well next week it's her BIRTHDAY! She is SO excited. And all that girl wants is "chock-it cake!"

Annie beats to  her own drum. She refuses to sing real songs, with real words. No, they have to be her songs, with her own "words". It's cute. I can't understand them, but it's cute.

She is a woman of passion and quietness- it's a fun combo to watch. She loves to hug, and she always shows concern for those around her. She also knows how to dramatically fling her body to the ground and scream bloody murder. I am really fond of this. Especially in church parking lots, elevators, dr's offices, etc...

All in all, life is good and hard. There are moments when there is so much peace and contentment, and there are other moments when really I just want relief from it all.

but really, I know my pockets are deep with gifts from these children of mine.

busy girl

this girl is almost 10 months old! and she is BUSY! she is crawling and talking babble like crazy. She is funny mix of laid back and feisty! And this girl can eat us all out of the kitchen.

millie moo. we love you.