this month has been so busy. lots of weekends away. lots of work. i miss being here, on my little blog, spilling my heart and soul.
truth be told, my heart feels pretty tired. tired of longing for things that just don't seem to happen. tired of hoping. tired of being disappointed by friends, my church, myself. sometimes i feel like i am working so hard to create something that all the beauty gets lost in the fight. maybe it's just that beauty is worth too much to come easy.
and the fear. what if something happens to josh. what if this or that. i think about these things more, and it overhwhelms me. i do long for heaven more and more- when we won't always have to fight back the tears. where people will be nice. when i will be nice.
until then, as i hear josh say so many times- have mercy on me, o God.
2 comments :
We love you Brooksie! Your joy and vulnerability are a source of strength for me. And, you are so gifted. Not only at expressing things of the heart- which by the way touches our hearts, but also, God has given you an extraordinary gift at capturing moments in a way that demands a response! God is using you to bless others. Thanks sister.
Sigh...
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