what we've been doing.

here we are. just hanging out. annie's been using her potty and amelia is eating bananas. 

I know, we are so crazy around here:)

making art

Annie loves art.

uneasy

the older I get, the less adaptable I am to change.

I start day shift this week, and I feel the anxiety creeping in.

same job, mind you. just in the DAY.

how silly can I be.

Josh has been gone this week, too,- and so the rhythms get disrupted. I feel shaky and unsure at times.

I feel this way in Tulsa, a lot. It feels more like home than before, but it still feels more like a foreign country.

I wonder about friends of mine of moved from their countries years ago to live here. Do they ache for their homeland? I can't imagine.

I watched a movie today- "the other woman"- this title is very misleading, because it's much more about the loss of a child. oh my goodness, it was gut wrenching, and beautifully acted by Natalie Portman. It's up there with "and then she found me", as one of the more real and well acted films I have seen.

There is so much crap out there, selling us a life that doesn't exist- that I am oddly refreshed when a film portrays something very real and messy.

This films walks through grief, and you feel every ounce of it. but there is redemption in the end, and I happen to believe in that reality, too.

well, that was random. it's quiet here, gonna try and get some sleep.

good night all.

she rolls

Learning new tricks is hard work.